I just thought that ...I really would feel better just type what's on my mind....I'm all aboot randomness sometimes...and honestly I find the order to the crazyness and it feels like it comes together in the end...to mean something...or heck...maybe its just there to vent...or make ya laugh...anyway you spin it...I type better then I write...and blog's really are just a public journal...and also I really don't care what people think about what I have to say...(I'm really funny like that...and I know people have a right to there opinion) so that in mind...here we go...
- I hate making plans...When ya make plans honestly it opens up two options...1) Hope for what is to come ...and 2) Disappointment in what might prevent what you planned from happening...Now I know that people have life to deal with...and I ain't going to falter people on that ...what I am going to do is separate my hope from plans...I have hope in many things...God...Life..People...my kids understanding that I have gone through a lot of things to get here....The Return of the Winnipeg Jets(some people might think that 'its a plan in your eyes' No...honestly if anyone is LOGICALLY PAYING ATTENTION TO ATTENDANCE AND THE AMOUNT OF MONEY TEAMS IN PLACES THAT THEY DON'T BELONG ARE LOSING....then they would come to the conclusion to ...'it should return to a place where it has a strong fan base and can work with our better structure to the league'.) But honestly I've come to the conclusion that spending your time and emotional connection to hoping about something that might not happen...is really futile...I fly by the seat of my pants because honestly...you can just go , go , go..."plan" things on the fly...and if they happen ...great ! Cause its then and there...if not...Fly off to another thing...
- 'You are too good for me' Things I was told about the girls I thought highly of and wanted to at least have a chance with going out with .Thoughts like that make me believe they didn't believe in themselves...I think really that's a cop out anyway...I know I was too good...you gals like the A**holes...and ya ...Im far better then one of those guys ...but really I didn't need to hear the complaining of how they treated you...but I chose to cause I was just ..'too good' no...I don't think I am too good for anyone...Im good enough for the right person...who that right person is? Can be anyone...Id prefer it to be a friend of mine but thats just my opinion...cause I really don't wanna build emotions that I think should already be there...mind you some people might say 'but thats the fun of being in a relationship' ...that really isn't fun...cause yur trying to build something ...while being intimate at the same time...and you have conflicting emotions and stuff...but hey...thats just my analytical mind ...working away
- I really dislike bullying ...honestly it's something that I stand for ...it's something that gets my anger boiling ...ya see I was bullied back in the day...all through elementary... and all the way to junior high school...for the way I looked...the way I talked...how I dressed...the fact I came from a poor home...ya ...it really wasn't a pretty site...I mean I had like 20 guys waiting to beat the crap out of me on more then one occasion..and the beginning of those kinds of bullies that were more then those 'troubled kids on the play ground' those cold calculating men and women that were just horrible...Kids will be kids is no longer an excuse ...I've been watching these news reports of kids killing themselves because of the bullying that they've had to endure...and its really sickening..
-I could really go for some Wendy's right now...a couple of Junior Bacon Cheeseburgers and a Salad...and a baked potato...some fries and a frosty...omgoodness...craving that so bad...
-heck...I could go for some grill cheese right now...just need me some bread...
-Well thats it for today...man...Friday's since I've cut things out of my life...have really become...boring...
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